My last post took you through the high school days where I had the opportunity to learn more about Christ and scripture. Unfortunately, during the high school days, although I went to church on occasion, it was very hit and miss. This led to a major separation from Christ after I graduated because the school was no longer part of my spiritual development and I had no church in my life to support me.
During the summer, I met a girl and a few short months later we were married. I was supposed to go off to college so we didn't tell anyone we were married. After a few short weeks away at college, I dropped out and came back to stay with my wife at her parents house. We told our parents what we had done, and of course, you could imagine the response. My wife and her parents went to church usually and I went a few times but our marriage didn't have God in it by any stretch of the imagination. In a very short time, I was totally isolated from God. I found out that my wife was pregnant and was hopeful that this would solidify our relationship. During this time, I worked for my stepfather doing sales and not making very much money so things were a bit financially strained. On top of all of this, we were living with my wife's parents so privacy was non-existent. I got a job working at the local sheriff's office as a dispatcher and had at least a steady paycheck. However, I was not the easiest person to get along with and not very responsible. My wife asked me to move out only a few months into our marriage. She told me she didn't want a permanent separation but things had to change. We had a major communication issue along with the fact that we were both young. We separated for a very short time but it was not much of a separation.
We finally moved to an apartment and my daughter became part of our life. I was hoping with the privacy and now a child in common that this would "fix" us. Still no Christ. Eventually, I was hired as a police officer and we all moved to Sumter. I was making more money and we lived in a mobile home my parents bought us. The mobile home was in a trailer park that we leased a lot on. So now I had more money, privacy, and a child in common. Still no Christ. The relationship was very strained this entire time. We agreed that we should split up but in the mean time discovered she was pregnant again. We decided that we could make it work and stayed together in hopes of having a family. My son was born and I was excited but scared. I wanted to play the adult but I wasn't ready to be the adult. We now had two children and our own place but still no Christ. Six months after my son was born my wife left after we had an argument. She went to stay with her mother.
I saw my kids while she went to work and she would pick them up on the way back through. My maturity level at that time was not the greatest so I didn't want to keep little ones overnight. Even losing my marriage and not seeing my kids I still resisted God.
Little did I know, this was just the beginning of a series of things that God was going to use to bring me to my knees. Just to be clear, God doesn't "Do" these things to you but you "Do" them to yourself. He will allow things to happen to bring you closer to him. I will get into more about my years as a police officer and some of the tragedy I encountered during that time in my next post.
During the summer, I met a girl and a few short months later we were married. I was supposed to go off to college so we didn't tell anyone we were married. After a few short weeks away at college, I dropped out and came back to stay with my wife at her parents house. We told our parents what we had done, and of course, you could imagine the response. My wife and her parents went to church usually and I went a few times but our marriage didn't have God in it by any stretch of the imagination. In a very short time, I was totally isolated from God. I found out that my wife was pregnant and was hopeful that this would solidify our relationship. During this time, I worked for my stepfather doing sales and not making very much money so things were a bit financially strained. On top of all of this, we were living with my wife's parents so privacy was non-existent. I got a job working at the local sheriff's office as a dispatcher and had at least a steady paycheck. However, I was not the easiest person to get along with and not very responsible. My wife asked me to move out only a few months into our marriage. She told me she didn't want a permanent separation but things had to change. We had a major communication issue along with the fact that we were both young. We separated for a very short time but it was not much of a separation.
We finally moved to an apartment and my daughter became part of our life. I was hoping with the privacy and now a child in common that this would "fix" us. Still no Christ. Eventually, I was hired as a police officer and we all moved to Sumter. I was making more money and we lived in a mobile home my parents bought us. The mobile home was in a trailer park that we leased a lot on. So now I had more money, privacy, and a child in common. Still no Christ. The relationship was very strained this entire time. We agreed that we should split up but in the mean time discovered she was pregnant again. We decided that we could make it work and stayed together in hopes of having a family. My son was born and I was excited but scared. I wanted to play the adult but I wasn't ready to be the adult. We now had two children and our own place but still no Christ. Six months after my son was born my wife left after we had an argument. She went to stay with her mother.
I saw my kids while she went to work and she would pick them up on the way back through. My maturity level at that time was not the greatest so I didn't want to keep little ones overnight. Even losing my marriage and not seeing my kids I still resisted God.
Little did I know, this was just the beginning of a series of things that God was going to use to bring me to my knees. Just to be clear, God doesn't "Do" these things to you but you "Do" them to yourself. He will allow things to happen to bring you closer to him. I will get into more about my years as a police officer and some of the tragedy I encountered during that time in my next post.
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